So DONE today

Okay, so I've lost my ABA person. I'm looking at preschools. I have no idea if we're using our ABA consultant, if I can afford her, whether we use her and preschool, or just her, then preschool....and all the stress of finding a preschool who will take a shadow, or do I call Polliwog to help? And all the high maintenance "my child may need a shadow, call me if there's a problem, he's on a diet, yada, yada, yada", trying to be optimistic, but also trying to explain why he MIGHT need a shadow....

I tried the Syndion (multivit + antioxidents) today with Lucas @ half dose. Not good. All over his clothes, all over the kitchen floor...he was VERY upset. I told him it wasn't an option, but I could help him get it to the back of his throat if he let me, so he doesn't have to taste so much of it.

My kids came out of their rooms what felt like 20 times today during "quiet" time. Between Jack's dirty diapers, Lucas wanting to go to the potty (b/c of Jack's diapers), & somehow thinking b/c mommy is on the phone trying to figure out WTH she is doing for preschools, therapies, dr appts and catching up on her g'pa's health, they can just keep walking out of their rooms, I think I'm going to lose my mind!

Jack definitely has something going on in his G/I tract. It could be malabsorption since he's not growing, it could be an infection, who knows. This means getting a stool sample, taking it back to the dr. Do I go to the ped before the endicrinologist next week to get the labs going? Do I just wait? I've changed 5 freakin' diapers today, PLUS he went in the potty. Besides the stress of him not having grown in the last year to year & a half. I can wait it out 6 months but it's been way beyond that now, but I'm getting pretty sure at this point his body is not doing what it's supposed to be doing. And he's back to refusing meals again. Oh, and I'm thinking Emma has something in her poop too (although HTH am I supposed to tell what is normal at this point? Lucas' weren't normal till we took him off casein, and Jack's been off casein for 2 mo & it's not making a difference).

Thankfully, Emma is growing. Although I am on high alert for her talking/babbling etc. I am considering not going to the ped as long as she's growing & developing. 1) I've got enough going on, and 2) don't want to deal with vaccines (I know, I'm chicken).

My marriage is doing better, Tim has been really sweet & thoughtful & listening this past week. However, (we forgot to do this yesterday) we are going to go back to our counselor next week to have a mediator for this whole hardwoods thing. He is insistent on doing in Feb during the time he took off from work to REST & NOT DO PROJECTS, and I'm concerned that I am NOT in a place to deal with his almost certain delays which takes me from being at my parents' house from 5 days to 2 months. Not once in 9 yrs of marriage has he finished a project in less than 4 months. Not ONCE. (Sigh.)

So this is the last thing that has happened this week. We have to go to mediation for our car accident 2 years ago. The people are physically fine, they just want more money. They walked out of the ER, my husband got a double dose of morphine for his cracked ribs. But Tim has to show up, and I am so not excited it got to mediation without our insurance company giving us a heads-up. And I am dumbfounded this guy's lawyer is pursuing this unless he has an idea he might get money. I'm assuming if the case gets dismissed, he can't afford his legal fees, else he wouldn't be suing us in the first place? It just doesn't make too much sense to me.

So this is Tuesday. Sure hope Wed brings better answers or a more sane day.